Late Night Musing

I hate that I'm one of those people that thinks of the right (the BEST) things (comebacks) to say once it's much too late to say it. Only after I've replayed the conversation 1000000 times in my mind, making small adjustments to the dialogue here and there, am I happy with the imaginery result of what I could have said and how the other person could have reacted. I can't think on my feet (don't ask me why I'm doing debating), so I have to actually prepare any important converstaions I'm going to have pre-hand. Otherwise I end up saying the wrong things. This way, I don't say anything wrong, I just don't get much right either. But I can't really prepare exactly what I'm going to say seeing as unfortunately, I actually can't easily guess what a person will say in response and therefore can't pan out the entire conversation how I'd like it to go. Instead I just know the general gist of what I'm going to say, and where I'm going to draw my boundaries in terms of how much I'm going to say, or how rude I can be. I think that's part of the reason I love msn - because, for the most part, conversations do pan out almost exactly how I'd like them to, because you have time to think and can easily buy yourself time so that you don't just say alright things, but the best things.

P.S. I realise this is like my 7th blog within the last two days, but anywho, I thought I'd reward myself for finishing my assignment so early! It's only 11.35 and I just realised I have a double free tomorrow morning =) Besides, I really can't help it anymore, I'm addicted, I like wording my thoughts.